Maybe you were right.

You belong with me

This is me, trying my fucking hardest. I'm pretty sure it still means absolutely nothing to you.

I will not fall apart
I will not fall apart
I will not fall apart
I will not fall apart
I will not fall apart
I will not fall apart
I will not fall apart
I will not fall apart
I will not fall apart

Falling fucking apart

Don't wanna hurt anymore

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

You used to shine so bright
But I watched all our loving fade

Each time I look at e pictures, it's like a knife through e heart. Imdb. Sighs. Maybe this is e emptiness I've been feeling.

Oh, and my girlfriend just told me I don't try hard enough. Yup, I gave my all and yet I don't try hard enough. Oookay.

Tireds

Happy, not

I can't, just can't, look at those pictures.
My heart aches, fucking aches.

You're not sorry

I've been giving out chances everytime but all you do is let me down Don't wanna hurt anymore You can tell me that you're sorry but Idbyblidb You're not sorry You used to shine so bright but I watched our loving fade There's nth left to beg for You're not sorry you're not sorry you're not sorry you're not sorry. You're not sorry.

Fucking broke to the max. I feel like such a bitch cuz I practically lived off my girlfriend ytd. (MC, popeye's, .... and the list goes on) Sigh sigh sigh. 2 more days till I get my allowance and there isn't a single cent in my wallet haha I'm such a luzzer. Gonn quit f21 soon and maybe go for an interview at Hv bucks with e help of Joy! (:

I haven't worn most of my clothes more than 4 times and I'm sick of them already. Gonn spend e $50 GSS f21 voucher + my $10 f21 voucher I won from e packing challenge tml! I hope! Hahaha. Shouldn't have gotten e shirts from threadless, I wear them to sleep because they're so comfortable haha. So I pretty much spent bout $70 on new PJs!!!! No wait, more than that ... Ok, gotta prioritise my $$$ for this month and e next. Savings plans never work out for me I swear.

Craving for popeyes..

Think I'm losing my blogging touch. Haha. My posts have become mundane and boring. Not that they were exciting and interesting before, just not AS mundane and boring.

Schl starts tml. I'm not looking forward to waking up for 9am lecture. Somebody save me from the evils of managerial accounting!!

Melt

You made me learn how to love again ♥

Stayed over at baby's place for e last time till, I dk when.
E next hols probably. Haha. Didn't go to work for e 2nd
weekend in a row. I hate working on weekends. Feel like quitting after
I get my pay. They should srsly do sth bout their management.
Like get a ego adjustment. Hm.

All e staff should go on strike.
See what are they to do when that happens. Pfft.

Had popeye's for e first time ever ytd. It was good :D

Okay I have nth to say. I think I have pictures in my camera,
but I'm so lazy to upload them. Hope June Race 09' went well
for e NPDB ladies. I cannot rmb e last time I had that adrenaline rush
that I once knew so well. I won't lie, I miss it everyday
Each time I think about it, my heart aches for a part of me
that is now gone.
But I won't turn back, I won't.

:( Should've taken up e bucks job at Change Alley.

Ok, 4:30 time to wake baby up from her afternoon nap.
This post is redundant and you just wasted your time on it,
hahahahhahaha

Recent events made me realise,
even if we feel like we have nothiing left in this world
We have Life.
Treasure it.

I have nothing left.
Fucking nothing.

Except all this anger.
Oh dear what am I to do




I'm going fucking insane

For-fucking-get it.

Yknw how everything can be resolved in my power?
"Yup, it's my fault. And I'm sorry."
"#$%^#@!!"
"I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to do it."

Everything's my fault, mine mine mine all mine.

I'm losing myself. Urgh, fuck.

Gonn do laundry then head str to bed.

Wronged, yet again.
Being accused / wronged of sth I didn't do,
is what ticks me off e most.

Oh wait, shouldn't you knw that by now?
Hm, not like you care anyways.
F for Effort.

Swr where art thou? I don't see you online :(

Uncontactable for e night.
So if you must, drop me a text.

There's a cut on my right eyelid,
and since y'knw, I put on eyeliner on a daily basis,
it hurts like krazy. askdfahl

Swr was my best surprise at werk today,
hehe I literally lit up when I saw her.
They shld pay double for OT or sth. Ass holes _|_
I don't think the 3 new staff today would
make up for the staff they so desperately need.

Oh yea, Swr Bb and Twp headed down
to Play on a last minute decision.
I swear I was kidding when I said we were heading down,
but then all of a sudden it wasn't a joke anymore haha.
I spy with my little eyes ..
Maids do not belong in clubs AHAHAHHAHA

I dislike rude customers.
K, time to sleep. Gotta be up in less than 6 hours for project.
Oh my mama and then I gotta head down to marina barrage
to watch 2009's POLITE. I dc if I'm invited or not, aha
Goodnight world, sleep well every buddy

I love movies where I'm seated inbetween Swr & Cherylalesandra (:
Hehe, ok 4:08am time to shower

There's another Gojane spree but I think
God is telling me not to spend anymore money
on shoes / clothes / whatever, cuz I was on the verge of
transferring $$$ over to the organizer's acc when
I realised that ibanking was down -.- So, oh wells.
I cancelled everything in the end.

Wearing my new heels now hehe I love them so much,
they're exactly like what I posted in the picture e other time!
Or even better ^^ Hehe yay love new stuff.
Ooh my f21 stuff came too, 2 blouses
One of which is checkered, the other's just pink and white thin stripes.
Ok, too much details..

Tml I get to end e same time as baby, like finally!
H8 f21's management, they shld srsly hire more staff
so that we can have a kitkat! Like urgh, we're slogging our lives away

They should:
1. Hire more staff
2. Have 3 rotating shifts instead of just 2
3. Minimize sarcasm used on junior staff
4. Stop treating us like kids and expect us to act like adults
(They take away our phones during werk fyi,
so if I'm uncontactable ya'll knw why)

Alrighty that's enough rants for e day. Shall take of them heels
and get ready for bed. Hafta pack my bag tonight,
God knws what time I have to leave e house tml!
Mmm, think 8:20am..
Which means I gotta be up by 7:40! O: Same time as bb.

K bye bye

It's like first of all you claim that I'm e cause of your unhappiness, then you fall asleep on me when I'm still so damn upset. Then you claim to not have fallen asleep on me, and then you are completely oblivious to why or what I'm feeling. Y'knw I asked you to be with me so that I will have you, and to not be alone. But hm, it seems to have had e reverse effect. So yea, here I am, lying on my bed, at 3 in e morning. all alone and trying to sleep. Well, what can I say? I should've known better anyway. Breathe in, breathe out, and just go to sleep. Ah wait, redundant post. Nobody cares.

Tsk, I want my extended H1N1 holiday pls.
No work, no schl! That is e life \_/

I'm not your punching bag, not anyone's.

Yea, you can get upset / pissed / angry with sth or someone.
But I cannot be there for you if you don't tell me what
happened or why you are feeling what you are feeling.
I will be there for you, but I say it again.

I am not your punching bag.

Hm.
remind me why I bothered again?

fuck I am fucking pissed off.

Pictures from Fathers' day bbq

By the kids' pool

Our music player for e night! (:

The lobster was so damn yummy!!!

Big head prawns

So,fucking,good

Forgot to take pictures of the chicken wings cuz they were so damn yummy and everyone dived into them immediately, haha. The Teoh family 4 you. Super delicious dinner! Ended with roasted cotton-candy smelling golden marshmallows (Evan and I) / cheese & crackers (My parents and Evan, hehe I had a little bit too) for dessert. Happy fathers' day Dad, I hope you enjoyed your day / night (:

I knw you're tired
and I knw how I say
I want to take away your pain
But you don't hafta take it out
on me this way

Didn't go to work over the weekends.
I bet they hate me / were bitching bout me cuz
I was sneezing like crazy on Saturday.
Whatever okay, suck on this bitches _|_

I want to drown in $$$$

I officially h8 myself

Omg fuck

:D

:D

(:

Tong, Ann, Ogie, mcchubs, dayat Baby, and I (:

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At tantrics (:

I r officially energizer bunny.
Hardly slept at all last night, got home at 9:15am this morning
only to nap till 10:30am to get ready for work at 12pm,
which lasted non-stop hits all e way till 8:30pm earlier
and then I went for dinner with Joy and Baby at Carl's jr,
where I was a zombie I swear.

Just got home not too long ago.
Got two new stuffs today! :D I like it when I get new stuffs.
Hehe. Got a new jacket and FINALLY! my navy blue leggings,
courtesy of my dearest (:

Mango has mad rad sales, gotta check it out soon!
But then I'll have to save up for Play tml.
Finally. After weeks of studying and staying away from Play,
tml night better be worth the wait!!!

Oh but hm. My left ankle is currently, I dk. swollen?
It hurts so bad I limp when I walk. And I can't
walk normally even with havaianas cuz the blister
is directly at the mark where my slipper lines my foot.
So um, I have no eye dear how I'm supposed to be clubbing
in this situation.

I am so tired now so I'm just gonn hit e sack.
Off day tml, which means I get to sleep in till whatever I time I like.
Huhu :D

anyway, oh yea.
if you think by lying you can get your fucking way through,
you are fucking wrong. Don't treat us all like idiots,
because you better jolly well knw we're not.
Everyone's tired of your endless mind fucks,
and we're not buying it this time. Not a single one of us.
You can ruin things between you and a friend,
don't ruin things for any one else.

On e way to meet baby at kranji for lunch. Left ankle hurts like a bitch. Hope work won't be so tedious today! Lovelies, do drop by f21 if you happen to be at vivo ok?! Love you long time (:

It's 1:40am and I can't sleep. Been tossing in my bed for bout
40 minutes str and I'm not even sleepy.
Meeting baby for lunch tml, I haven't seen her for a day.
O:
Hehe she searched / called all over singapore for my My friend, Leonard
and she got it for me today :D I r happy gal.
When she flashed e book over skype earlier,
my eyes went O.O and I screamed like a high schl girl I swear hehe.
Heart shape heart shape ^^

Won't be updating till Wednesday if I am not too tired,
staying at baby's place tml night! Pray
we won't order macs again or we will just die from overdose of fat.

Kinda eggcited bout work tml, baby's picking me after (:
Not too eggcited bout my feet having to work through e 9 hrs again tho..
hm, but since I'm getting $200 a week in exchange, shall not complain!

Oh and anw,
in any case of friendships.
Honesty is always e best policy.
Stop treating my bf like dirt.

Got home at 11 from first day of work.
Mad tiring but I like it. Was running around for e whole day
since 2pm!
Legs aching like a bitch right now.

I am a bird. A freaking bird.

4th (:

Kinda worried bout first day tml, everyone
looked so gloomy earlier when I was there.
Hehe I will bring sunshine! Ok joke.

Had lunch at Carl's jr with e fam -.- and then my mum and I
had a mad shopping spree. My mum probably bombed
$250 on both her and I. Hehe. Happy day.

M (In chinese) "Woah, I think the time when our relationship
is at its best is when we are shopping together."

HAHAHAHAHA

Okays gonn sleep by 1. Rlly nervous bout tml!!!
Pray/wish/hope I like it. Goodnight world.

Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it
Baby we’re stuck with each other
Ain't nothing you can do bout it

Have you heard about my new curfew? (:

M (In chinese) "It's either you come back before 12, or come back after 6 - around 7am or sth. Don't come back in between."
N "Yea lor, cabfare very expensive."
M "No, on top of that, in e middle of e night you wouldn't knw what kinda taxi drivers you get. L8er you get some crazy drivers that bring you to I dk where ..."
N "-.- Yea ok. After 6. *Cheers inside my head*"

I "Whalao eh, same goes for me ah thanks."

HAHAHAHA

Shady's back, tell a friend.
Starting work tml after lunch (:

Hello. At vivo. Gonn have lunch at carl's jr -.-

Heart shapes

Whatever beaver!

Bunny

Wr's classmate Tisa (from nyp db!) gave me my long awaited bunny ring hehe :D Very sleepy. Lying on my bed trying not to sleep O: yawn

Oh,

and have I officially mentioned?

SCHL'S OUT PEOPLE! (:

Stuck with each other

Hehe e folks are becoming more and more lenient, I like.
So anw, blaw paper was okay. But I thought I could've done better.
Didn't use biglaw words, just used plain english but
I hope I would get e marks anyway.

Mj ytd over at Juli's place. Zi mo feeling is awesome :D
Spize after and e mee goreng is shiokobutsu yumyum.
Cabfare this afternoon was $20.70,
I have spent nearly all e $80 that my dad banked in ytd.
Saving money plan is failing terribly :(

IT fair? I want touch.

I'm broke as hell and tml
marks e end of my cts so
what does that mean?
Where my party people at ^^
And so do you see e link
Last day of cts = a nono to be broke
But I am. So.Very.Broke.
): Bux didn't call. I choose to believe their phonelines are down.
Or their manager called in on sick-leave and didn't
manage to read my application.
Positive thinking gets one further in life, hehe.

I foresee not doing well in Blaw ct but I am not afraid.
Not one of my do-or-die modules.
I knw, I knw - not the right mindset,
but I'm exhausted from the studying all week.
And wednesday after paper kinda broke my momentum.
So yea, I just got to get myself outta bed tml at 9:20am
and get my ass to e sports hall by 10:45am,
and mission accomplished.

oh nose I didn't rlly focus on Law of contract 1 & 2
and it's coming out for sect C's long answer qn.

Why do I feel like I don't really give a damn.

Tml 11:30am, schl's out! (:

If you like it
then you should've
put a ring on it

I've got this Icebox where my heart used to be

Flattened fish burger!

Our feast

:D

Glitter

Mixed with rock and roll

Baby cried buckets

Hehe retards

Fatfat

Wo yao!

It's 1:40 I still can't sleep. Sometimes I wish humans never need sleep. Why sleep?! It's such a waste of time. Wish I could go shower right now and speed off to schl to get miec over and done with. Roars.

What I fall asleep to every night

But right now, I just can't get to dreamland :(

Oh yay I hope I get e job at Sandwich shop! (:
Finally sth to do for the 2 weeks of hols.
Besides one of my favourite past-times which is
wasting my life away of course.. Hehe

I don't even feel like I'm having a paper tml.
Think I spent too much on dinner today :(
Hate e feeling of regret after you spent too much on sth
that you thought wasn't worth it after all.

Ok sorry, I'm rambling again..

From better toy store!

Hehe

Apple tea

At marche! (:

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Warm caramel macchiato (: Very very bored..

:( Not in e mood to study for micro. Wda went pretty okay but I thought I could've done better. Pray tml's paper hits close to what my tutor gave for revision qns. I'm wearing a frog ring on my right index finger hehe (:

I've been so used to lj that when I wanted to post an entry, I literally
clicked to e LJ bookmark
in my bookmarks toolbar and clicked on 'Post an entry'.
My my, too pre-occupied. Hehe.

Anw, I discovered the joys from blogging from my e75!
I just send whatever I want to blog to an customised email add
provided by blogger and then hit send.
What you see is what you get!
Also, tweet.sg is da bomb due to my unlimited sms :D
but currently its sms gateway is down so blah.

I get to sleep in till 12 tml even though I have a ct.
Yay for afternoon papers (:

Life's lesson #41427

Change noone but yourself.

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After dinner at bucks with baby (:

I'm so bored. It's 5:23pm,
I've pretty much covered everyt
I needed to study for Wda alr
and I'm lazy to do anymore
so that leaves me with basically
nth left to do.

my laptop batt died.
thank God for my phone hehe (:

Testing

This triumphs Wda any day!

Hi there from my very sexy e75! (:

Gotta get get

(:
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0 msg

count-ofdays introduced.

Currently sitting at bucks@Tanglin
Taking a break from Wda, which is
depleting my braincells. Lots to memorise
but most of which is common sense to me
I think IT runs in my blood
so I choose to believe tml's ct will be pie to me.

Hear here,I will now show you a glimpse of my only IT subj this sem.
This is chapt 4
aka, Normalization.

Partial dependencies are dependencies based on only a part of the composite key.
What is e composite key? Let's hope that qn doesn't appear tml haha.
Transitive dependencies are dependencies based on only a non-prime attribute.
In other words it does not depend on e composite key -.-

And I have a chapt on micro. access. ?!?

Could schl get anymore boring.

Baby I found e $9 you hid in the secret compartment
hahahaha.

one disadvantage of studying by yourself
Everytime you need to pee you need to worry abt your things.
And right nowwww,
I need to shit l:

Start twittering!

__Babydolll@twitter (:

Wha,
my fitness like fuck.
It's like year1 all over again.

Today must be a good day.
I'm finally getting my ass to e gym
O:
The first time I told myself to gym was probably a couple a weeks ago.

Ok, mission isn't accomplished until I click Publish Post
and put on my pink barbie shoes and walk over
to the little building above the swimming pool.

Running is still The enemy ):<

I have yet to find comfort.
Happiness is long gone.

In place, I find heartache. Sadness. and Emptiness.

You have lost yourself, drowned in doubts and paranoia.
Where are you?

only you can,
Find yourself.
Do it for me.

Roger this

Expect nothing of me when
you speak to me in tone of
paranoia unhappiness doubt.

With what's left in me, I will try to understand.

It's really not much. Really.

But I will try.

I say again,Expect nothing.

Pray for me.

That I won't wake tml morning.
That I will wake up in my dreams,
where all is White and Pretty and absolutely Perfect.
No wars no fights no destruction no friction no deterioration no chaos.

Yes, that is what I dream for.
What do you dream for?

I believe in this case,
Opposites do not attract.

My battery is nearly dead.
I power you, and you have been quite draining lately.
Tell me.
Why do you d(rain)oubt me so?
I am just wasting away, wasting away..

For some reason
The east-side air-waves that prevent data from being sent
has some wrongdoing on my part.

Yup,
Here we go again.

Welcome to my life.

Have you ever heard of
Too tired to sleep?

Call for, Air-time. Pause. Take your breather.

And, go now.

Here we go again.
Long, hard, drive.
Sick cycle carousel.

Jealousy is my most difficult emotion.
Second is vulnerability.

What's yours?

Find it in myself,
to carry on.


Flames to dust.

Of all the many things I want:

a new hair color!!!!!!!!!

Recommends? (:

note to self:
Rmb to check if BB's popular bookstore has shipped in their new stock of My friend, Leonard.

Numbz's mum called her a bastard earlier this evening.
At 12:14am she came into numbz's room and told her she bought her Ham,
to make up for it.

Wanru mama so cute. Hahhahaha.

-
People should learn to think before they speak.

All the people on the street, go

"We've heard that one before"

Dead battery

Pick yourself up, Novelyn.
Can't you see?
No one else will.

Dragonboat

I miss you
Have been missing you
Will always miss you

We're breaking down

Well, here we are again
Throwing punchlines, no one wins

You are queen of contradiction city

Honest.
Get shit.
Facade.
Get shit.
Honest.
Get worse shit.

How now brown cow?
Or whatever colour you are. I am, exasperated.

Don't trust me

L-o-v-e is just another word I will never learn to pronounce.

Do not take me for granted.

My love don't cost a thing

All that matter's is that
you treat me right
Give me all the things I need
That money can't buy

Understanding. Patience. Love.

Lips-forbiting is back on the road.
My heart's a big, big mess. Can you handle it?

If you can't take the heat,
stay out e kitchen.