Goodbye, old friend

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See ya there :)

Honey corn

Haven't been updating this space. Had in-store trg for the entire week, hardly studied oh gawd. Hopefully I'll be able to get through these 4 papers without seeing an F on the results slip on 15th september!! Gotta go dive into the last few hrs of my revision before heading off to dreamland at 11:30PM. Slp early = No careless mistakes!

Never liked you

The beast didn't get her Belle and my oh my, what a sour grape she is.

If you've got nothing better to say? Then keep it to yourself.

Afraid

'People keep telling me that I fall in love too easily - that I should protect my heart, that I shouldn’t wear my heart on my sleeve… I fall in love at least 20 times a day. I fall in love with the sky and the sun and the flowers and my children. I fall in love with smiles, with music on the radio and with french fries and Dr. Pepper. I fall in love with the sound of laughter, blue jeans, accents… Sometimes I fall in love with complete strangers, especially the ones holding hands and kissing in public. The ones who aren’t afraid to be in love with the idea of being in love either. I don’t mind the pain of unrequited love so much, because I think they’re wrong. Love looks good on me.'

MANY MANY ITEMS ARRIVING SOOON! (:

+++ More arriving in bout 2 weeks hopefully! :D Whao I have lots of new additions to my shoe family. My skirt just arrived today, and my dress from AE should be arriving tomorrow. YAY YAY I cannot waittt (:

Am now just missing a pair of wedges and a pair of fully-covered booties!!! Ok patience patience, shall get them by September (: (: Gotta love gojane ohmygoshhh can't wait to arrive at gold coast and hit RUBI SHOESSS. ++ Supre hehehe work x100 plsssss.

Ok now that the shopping part of my life is covered, I srsly gotta start hardcore revising for my finals. I know I have been saying it but I haven't been doing it. Sigh. Gotta start from tomorrow. 7 days to chiong for 4 papers. Seems like alot of days but I know when it comes down to the grinding stone, the 7 days will pass by in a flash! So I srsly gotta just SLP EARLY WAKE UP EARLY STUDY THEN GO TO WORK. If not I will punish myself with no shopping for the rest of the september ahahaha like it will work. Haiya I just need some motivation to work hard to pass and get good grades :(

My latest buys from Asos:

Bought the skirt only because it was 5pounds haha. Can't wait for the ring to arrive :) PLS PLS PLS DON'T GO OOS

Swr's bday / Yesterday in town / Phuture@Zouk

29th July / On the way to House@Dempsey

Cutting of cake / Bday princess!

Ytd before heading to town hahahhaha

From PS to e bus stop / On the way to meeting Swr@Paragon

Phuture / Swr :)

Sigh, I are snow white :( Ugly,ugly
Ogie & Ann :)

Joy looks, overjoyed hahaha

Okay, that's about all the uploadable pictures I have for now, not much - I know, but it'll suffice for the next couple of days. Gotta stop neglecting my canon, it looks and feels ancient but there's just something about it that still makes me love it as much :) Having bucks lessons in bout 2.5 hours, I ought to get ready in 30 minutes. My eyes are swollen (yet again) from the eyeliner I put on yesterday. Sigh, explains why I haven't been using much of eyeliner recently. My eyes = kong ba paus. :(

(: I've got a job even before my holidays have started. Wunderful. Now I just gotta focus on passing all my exams and my life will be complete. Oh and the last of us has now gotten hired at bucks@Ion too! Happy day! We can own e place already hahahaha. Ok this post is pointless and I do not know why I decided to update in the first place.

PS: MY DAD IS GETTING A 2ND CAR FOR ME AND MY BRO! Ok lah, like currently its for my bro lah. But when I pass my driving then it'll be mine too! YAY YAY! Omg haha so eggciting. Just imagine I can just drive to school. Say goodbye to being late for class! HAHAHAHA OKAY I am just dreaming, for now..

Joke of the year

Twas taking a dump @ block 72 level 5's toilet. So after taking a dump, what do you usually do? Yup, you head to the sink to wash your hands. Moments l8er, someone came out from one of the cubicles, and so, instinctively, I looked up into the mirror. I did a double-take, thinking: WOAH, this bung is damn guy I swear. Then decided to be polite so I looked away. AND THEN, moments l8er he exclaimed 'Ohmygod, am I in the wrong toilet?! Ohmygod this is embarrassing. Omgggg, I'm so sorry. I'm really sorryy...' HAHAHAHAHA Then he drifted out of the toilet. Hahahaha ohmymama embarrassing moment for him man.

AND OH YEA WHAT'S MORE, I HAD TO TAKE THE LIFT DOWN WITH HIM. Srsly damn funny and awkward hahaha. He kept apologising to me and I just had to keep saying its okay?! HAHAHAHA. His last line when the lift reached the ground floor was "I am so sorry. Haha. See you around, HOPEFULLY NOT IN THE TOILET"

HAHAHAHA And all this sounded like it happened in 10 minutes right. But no, in actual fact, it happened in less than hm. 3? Hahaha poor guy

Got these last night :)

Every time some heterosexual person decides to be sweet and drops an IM asking 'Hi! How's your day?' I always have to fake that I've had some normal 'heterosexual' girl day, about how my mum prepared a yummy steamboat and how I didn't want to wake up for church at 10:30am this morning, omitting all the crummy details of my diry little secret of a life. Shows how much I actually hide / portray a different image of myself to the outside world, when each time some heterosexual person checks in on me my mind stares at the words on the screen and I form sentences in my mind that will only, stay in my mind : "I had an okay day, could've been better though. I have a girlfriend, that's more than perfect to me, a group of friends that are all gay - which I love, with what's left of my heart. I spent certain parts of the day (such as now) thinking about my girlfriend, and the unmentionable. And my heart breaks everytime I imagine her staring into someone else's eyes, whispering I, love you.."

I h8 sharing, even if it may be in the past. I don't know how to deal with it, because this time it's different. And I don't know how to give or love anymore, but you're still here and I don't know how much longer that's going to last. Probably why I'm scared to death of the word 'Future' because in this non-heterosexual life,

Nothing lasts forever.

Two words:

I WANT.

Desperately wanted a bootie, and I dk if I did the right thing by getting this:

Haha hello I have been neglecting space, I honestly do not know what I have been so busy with. But the past week have been filled with preparations for Swr's big 18th (Accompany Joy to choose wr's gift, accompany Cherylalesandra to choose wr's gift, calling AND cancelling several reservations at several different restaurants, shredding 4 JUICE magazines, going to ikea to find a ultra large wanru-will-get-a-shock box, invitation list, cakes, and the list goes on .. hahaha), I must say it was quite a success :) Hope you enjoyed yourself on that day Ru! Hehe

Just got home from West Coast Plaza with Cherylalesandra. Completed and submitted my WDA final report for this Semester so I have just 3 modules left to worry about! Quite happy / proud of myself that I'm not rushing this report or whatsoever. Hahahaha but its x100 thanks to Ius and his Hairies project, if not I would've just been a complete mess.

Today is the start of a new month, I've paid my phone bill, have no nearing deadlines to worry about, have just changed my nail colour to a barbie pink, and I know I am definitely going to like the stress-free days ahead of me.

24 more days to my 1st paper, and 28 more days till MY HOLIDAYS! :) Gonn watch Cinderella on Ice then! :)

Mondays are boring

Woke up at 1:30PM today, lazed around, satisfied my maggi mee craving, regretted it, watched PS I love you, lazed around some more, and here I am now at 4:28PM, having successfully done absolutely nothing for the day. Haha.

Gonn shower and prepare myself to head out in 4.5 inch heels O: + /: + ^^ hahahaha I'm such a weirdo

O: Swr's big day in 2 days! Ok, like 1.5...

Yay / Nay?

Speaking for myself: You're wrong about the sympathy vote, it was never, ever a sympathy vote. I genuinely miss your company and the times when nobody "GETS IT" except us, the "SHE LIKES IT?!" and the "I LOVE BUNS" moments. This may sound mushy or whatever they wna call it, but you are one of the very few things I NEED in my life.

I knw it has been difficult but I may not knw how much, but I want you to knw that I'm still here and I can say without a doubt, that you are the best thing that happened to me in all my 19+ years of life, even better than my operation. (Nobody'll get this except if it's directed to you)

IT'S BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!

YES YES YES YES :) Feel like skiving blaw lecture to go get that. Hehehehe

Wednesdays = Mid-week break

Today, I went to explore Orchard Ion for the very first time! Signed up for the bucks there, but I highly doubt I will get the job. Walked all around till my legs are aching like crazy. I feel that even though we walked around for bout 2 hours +++ , we still didn't cover every of the stores at Ion. What's more, many of the stores weren't opened yet. Can't wait for Uniqlo to open! Walked into LV and I saw this red wallet omg omg I am now lusting for it. $1105, come to mama? :(


Wanru came to join us for dinner, and we ate at food republic! Yummy yum yum.

So much for saving money, I bought a new top today hehe

Random

At times it seems that I have everything that I want, but why do I still feel like something's missing. Hm.

Feel like eating coconut icecream!

Not seeing Cherylalesandra today.

Thinking bout the union jack wallet from River island. $53!!!! Money money come to mama. Hahaha. Wish I was born loaded and filthy rich.

When I don't have a job, I want one. But when I have one, I really h8 it and just wna quit it ASAP. It's true that I always want what I can't have. Haha. Okay maybe just for this case.

Need a new, good, book that I will be hooked on like how I was hooked onto the Twilight series. But I doubt that's ever gonn happen because the Twilight series is THE Twilight series :) Hehe can't wait for New moon to be out!

I really didn't know why I clicked on New Post on the blogger dashboard. Because this is a senseless and waste-of-your-time post, really.

Good day mates! Xx

Finally tired at the right time

In the middle of a reaallllly long burp..

I thought you understood.

Anyway I love my buys today. And singapore is just too slow. The union jack chanel was in 2007 autumn's collection. Wtf. 2007 -.- It's 2009 now. Okay bye.

Guilty

I feel so guilty right now cuz I just bought this!!! Hahaha I'm not supposed to spend any money :( I couldn't resist it - it was on sale on the Oldnavy website! Haha. $30 altogether leh, usual price is x2 of it. Shizzz. Hope when the spree closes it's still in stock. If not I'll be so damn bloody sad. Haha. Finally getting an affordable denim jacket! :)

Time to shower then leave the house for gr8 world, to get another item - my C&K bag l:

My gojane shoes are arriving tomorrow! :) Not really THAAAT excited because I decided that buckle shoes are so annoying and troublesome to wear. I wish my zebra satin flats weren't sold out sigh! :( Oh wells.

Cherylalesandra looks really serious thinking of what to type out for the comments on Swr's comms blog.. hahahahaha its kinda amusing

Okay, time to do laundry. Xx

Gossip Girl S3E01,

When are you coming to mama? :(

Just get back up when they knock you down

Had lunch at gr8 world today, thus resulting in the $395 zara bill because the whole family went shopping after lunch. Hehe. Love my buys! Wanted to get another skirt but didn't in the end because my mum didn't like it. Kinda regret though, should've just insisted my way through. Found this union-jack-coloured bag from C&K and I reserved it hehe I really wna get it soon! Sigh sigh sigh gotta save money / take a loan / make sure I repay the loan / make sure I pay my phonebill before the next warning letter arrives or I will be in deep shit.

Oh yea, I talked to my dad bout going overseas and he said that as long as I pass my exams, He will be sure to pay for my trip and let me go! How awesum is that :) Hehe. Means during my 7 week holiday after this Semester I wouldn't have to be stuck in singapore for all these weeks! Cannot wait for the mad shopping. Have to work, work, work immediately after term ends :)

Met Cherylalesandra after lunch / shopping at gr8 world and we looked around the WHOLE MALL for a pair of shoes she would've liked but to no avail. So we took a bus to dempsey and then I met my family for dinner there :) My burger was $32 (And 3 of us had the similar, same-priced burger) I feel so guilty for ordering it. The bill was a bomb O: Without any special occasion O: Oh wells, once in awhile.

Pictures:

Okay, that's all folks! :) Need to study x10 hard for my exams so that I'll be able to go overseas! And this time I think I better study at home more often so that I'll be able to show them that I'm studying! Haha omg sigh but if I book the tickets earlier they're cheaper right? :( I rlly want to go..

Food makes me happy,

and I feel like it is such a crime.

It is time to sleep so that I have sufficient rest not to fall asleep during the homily tomorrow. I hate to be home I wish I cohabited with Cherylalesandra so that I never have to come home to.. this. I hardly speak to them anyway, I wonder why they always want me in this jail. I hate eating when they're outside / around the house, it makes me so guilty that I don't enjoy my meal and that I just want to gag and regurgitate everything out once I'm done. Food doesn't seem to taste as good around them. I feel so depressed, but I just refuse to admit it. Tomorrow I will wake up and everything will be okay again. I'm glad that I've mastered the art of putting up an emotionless front around people whom I don't like to bare my feelings to.

Goodnight world

I wonder,

If she would be finally happy if Ian, Evan or I developed an eating disorder. Maybe she would be so thrilled to finally have met her goal in life.

I need to get a job, so that I can stop depending on my parents. Their $$$ is like a silencer. It is what makes us obey them. That's just plain weak.

When I was seven,

Wow my mom kept saying I was fat. Hm. Was I really? I think she has major issues with herself that she likes to take out on her children. I don't think she has ever said that any of her children were skinny / small / looked good. Mind you, she isn't skinny herself. I am considering moving out once I'm 21. Really can't take it anymore. She is one of the key problems to my self-esteem issues.

Thank you for always holding my hand when I get scared in the car / taxis, I really don't like it when taxis drive so close and fast to other moving vehicles or when they turn at sharp corners, or when they drive in the 1st lane next to the center barrier separating the two opposite directions vehicles are moving in. I know right, I'm such a scaredy cat. But thank you for loving me any way.

Girls for life

Impromptu decision to head to town to meet Ru & Co turned out to me having dinner at pastamania and everyone have dessert at HK Cafe :) French toast is damn yummy!

Cherylalesandra is over now :)